Oh, and if you're recovering from an ED - good for you, but this isn't the place for you.
And if you are "suffering" from an ED - follow the recoveries. This isn't a place for "victims".
This is a choice,
not an excuse,
not a spotlight,
not a statement,
and definitely not a disease.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Starting over

Deep breath...
Let's get down to business :)

So, I decided to delay my "restart" of this process until today just because the last few days have been jam packed with going away dinners and the like what with all my friends heading off to uni and college. Well, I guess I haven't told you, but I'm taking this year off. I'm hoping to go to India in December for a volunteer trip (first I have to get off my lazy ass and raise some money!) then next year in and around March, I'm going to England to work for a few months. While I'm over there, I'm going to see some of Europe and stop by New Zealand on my way home (It's not really on the way home - but I'm upgrading my ticket to an around the world ticket).
So, today's the day.
Last night I ate so much my stomach hurt (my friends and I always blaze before indulging in all-you-can-eat!). So I took two extra strength night time laxatives and have been shitting all day. Ugh.

On a lighter note, I found this wonderful video of model Dree Hemingway. In all honesty, I don't think she's that pretty. Her face just doesn't have that intriguing "double-take because you're so different but so beautiful" look. Her body, on the other hand, is magic. And this video is STUNNING!

And on an artsy note: I present to you Hiroshi Tanabe!
And my two favorite illustrations:

And that's my touch of artsy thinspo for today :)
Tonight I'm going to see my boyfriends new condo downtown. I'm staying the night. I'm so excited!!! I wish I hadn't left my ids in my friend's shorts. I was going to pick him and his new roomate up a 2-4 for housewarming. And I look like I'm 12 today, so LCBO will probably laugh upon my arrival without id. Ugh.
I need to go buy a new shirt from the mall down the street because if I'm staying over at the bf's, I can't exactly go into work wearing the same thing tomorrow. I'll leave here early and scoot down in time to buy a cheap little shirt. Horah. I'm actually so excited. Sososo excited.
All I've had today is a diet coke and some veggies (broccoli, coliflour, cucumber, and celery). And I've been on my feet all day... so hopefully I'm in the negative cal range by the end of today. :)
But I should sign outta here. I have work to do (nawt).

Love you all and hope you're all doing well!
Remember: Of course starving is hard. if it were easy, everyone would be thin.


  1. Honestley traveling will be so worth it, im planning on going on a europeain booze cruize next summer when all my friends are back from their first year at uni..a few of my friends have already been and loooved it!!

    in regards to how much you have eaten...my advise lookk at it as a motabolizum boosting week, and now u can get back down to work :)


  2. LOVE the video. <3
    Wonderful... :)