Oh, and if you're recovering from an ED - good for you, but this isn't the place for you.
And if you are "suffering" from an ED - follow the recoveries. This isn't a place for "victims".
This is a choice,
not an excuse,
not a spotlight,
not a statement,
and definitely not a disease.

Friday, October 9, 2009


Today is great. Not hungry at all.
Wish I didn't eat those 4 slices of pizza and the cup of pizza flavoured KD. 200 cals in ea. so a total of 1000 cals yesterday. Totally shit. But I took a laxie and a deep breath and today I am eating NADA.
I can feel myself getting lighter.
Perhaps I'll post a picture of my stomach (and disgusting thighs, ugh).

So, last night I mooched a ride from a guy friend, M. We took chemistry together in grade 11 and it was the most fun I've ever had in a class. I did horribly in the course because as much as it's interesting to me, the majority of the chem formulas and symbols were gibberish to me. The only thing that really saved me from passing were the labs M and I did together. I don't think either of us passed our exams, but we did unrealll at labs. We were the loudest kids in the class and our teacher loved/hated us. I developed a crush on him about half way through the semester and decided to tell him over honesty box on fb. Now, I'm not usually a coward, but I thought it would be fun. Wrong. It went horribly! He told our whole class about this "mystery honesty box girl" and in the end, I told him it was me. We hung out after school a couple times but the last time, he fell asleep, so I moved on lol. We have a laugh about it all now.
Soooooo, he drove me home last night slash I drove his van because he didn't want to drive because he wanted to smoke but I can multitask. We went to the park and talked and laughed and eventually kissed.
I don't know if you've ever been in a long term relationship, but usually when you get out of one, kissing anyone else feels weird.
Well, S felt weird, fuckbuddy feels weird, but M didn't.
It was super cute.
And casual.
And we're going to a party tonight and he called "dibs" on snuggling with me.
BUT I'm on the rag.
Good job, me.
BUT I'm going to his college for Halloween and I'm staying with him, so hurah!
Sorry for this extremely boring post. I write more for me. The artsy posts are for you girlies, but if you find my life interesting at all, then keep on readin' and I promise it will all get better.

And since I put you through this torturous post, I'll post some thinspo lateskis once I find some that's interesting enough.

Hope you're all happily hungry ;)


  1. What is pizza flavored KD? lol

  2. Ahh that post made me all smiley! Crushes are amazing!!
    Enjoy your snuggling ;)And the party!
    Do you have a game plan for this thanksgiving weekend? How do you get out of eating loads?

  3. I was thinking the same CA :)
    and I'm glad you found someone it's just easy to be around and not akward, even though stuff has happened in the past, I hope things go well!

  4. dont worry about your disagreement, however maybe you made a little wrong interpretation : I know that ana , starving, loosing weight is something you do alone with yourself and stop. This list helps , i'ts not enought and ti's not everything i believe in, of course, but it helps a little : better than nothing , but our goals are so much more than this, i guess.
    thanks, dont be sorry ! :)
    advices ? train yourself in sports , dont be lazy (take some energetics pills like.. integrators or vitamine C and B , for youre skin and hair but ABSOLUTELY dont take laxatives . They dont help you to loose weight at all , and they destroy youre intestine. )